When you live with a first responder, you think about the “what if”. Not all the time, but frequently. At least I did. All in a vain attempt to make myself feel like I had a plan. There were times you had no choice, like when your husband needs to know how you want to be notified of his death. Would you like a phone call or a visit?
Anyway, this “what if” game carried on even after he was retired and working for Amazon. Now, he commuted everyday. Having been a first responder’s wife, I knew that getting in a car is the most dangerous thing we do everyday and the odds of us being killed in a car accident are higher than any other way to die.
You see, danger is ever present, we cannot safeguard everyone against any and all threats. We just have to live bravely.
During one of my episodes, I got fed up with myself. I said to myself, “Why don’t you use that active imagination and write that story- the what if that actually did- in that book you keep saying you will write one day.”
So I did. Brett Bentley lost the love of her life too soon. She is convinced no man will want to live in the shadow cast by Adrian Bentley. But, at a vulnerable time in her life, she needs protecting. In walks Alex. For the first time in 6 years Brett meets someone who makes her feel alive. But can she be brave enough to put her heart out there again?